Michael Jackson Wasn’t So Weird After All

January 23, 2010

Updated and Improved as of 10/6/17 with some pictures moved around, some pictures added, some pictures deleted, two more key points that should have been made before and one added book that I read that I should have mentioned before!

On June 25, 2009, the world lost its biggest superstar, Michael Jackson. Michael was born August 29, 1958 and I was born 15 months later. I grew up watching him grow up and become a superstar right before my eyes. He really knew how to sing, dance and grab an audience at a very young age. Even Dick Clark, American Bandstand emcee said, I knew Michael as a child and watched him grow over the years. Of all the thousands of entertainers I have worked with, Michael was THE most outstanding. Many have tried and will try to copy him, but his talent will never be matched.” (Quote taken from the Michael Jackson Fan Club website)

For those of you who weren’t around when American Bandstand was around, it was a TV show that came on for an hour every Saturday for several years and introduced many artists into our lives, one of the groups being the Jackson 5 and then later Michael as a single performing artist. Dick Clark would have people in the audience get up and dance to the current songs of the times and then have some of those people rate the new songs as they were introduced to the world. It was a fun show and I looked forward to watching it every Saturday.

Like most young kids it seemed back then, I loved rock and roll, and that was basically what I listened to in the beginning. Out of rock and roll came hard rock, heavy metal, disco and pop music and that’s where Michael comes in. I kept up with his career for a time, all along thinking what an incredibly good looking and sexy young man he had become. Then as time went on I began noticing he was wearing makeup and I didn’t know or understand why. I’ll discuss that later in this blog.

Sometime shortly after that I started listening to country music and before I knew it I was a die-hard country music fan. I no longer kept up with Michael’s career, I never knew about his humanitarian work and I think that is why it was so easy for me, at first, to believe he could be guilty of such a horrible crime as child molestation. When Michael was accused in 1993 and then in 2003 for the same charge, I tended to fall into the web of the media and their lies, and of course they never brought up his humanitarian work during all their broadcasts. Now that I know what I know, my heart goes out to him.

When Michael died on June 25, 2009, I didn’t understand why since I had him pegged as a pedophile, but I cried my eyes out that entire evening! Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen had opened in theaters that same evening and I was attempting to watch it with my daughter and her then boyfriend, and between the very loud movie and me crying so hard I had developed a terrible headache! I remember thinking all I wanted to do was leave the theater, go home, go to bed, get some sleep and hopefully I would wake up the next morning and realize it had all been a horrible nightmare!

I finally got home, was getting ready for bed and turned on the TV to see what all was being said about Michael. The program I was watching was focusing on his amazing talent. Eventually I turned off the TV and tried to go to sleep, but I couldn’t, so I decided to get on YouTube to see what all the fuss was about (because I had forgotten) and I first pulled up his performance of Billie Jean during his 30th Anniversary Special at Madison Square Garden in 2001. I was completely blown away (I know my jaw dropped) and all of a sudden I felt even sadder because I realized I had missed out on his incredible talent through the years.

A pang of guilt came over me, too, and I continued to cry for two solid months. I realize it seems like I’m exaggerating, but I promise I’m not. It felt like a spiritual scolding. Those of you who believe in God know what I’m talking about. It’s called chastisement. I decided to do something with that, feeling like I was supposed to. I felt God was tugging on my heart to research Michael, it was a strong urge and I could not ignore it, so I spent countless hours on the Internet and purchased several books. My mission was to find out if the allegations against Michael were true or not and if he was indeed as weird as I thought he was! Once I did my research and realized that Michael’s love for children was innocent, pure and came from a good place, and that he was not weird at all, I then felt compelled by God to write this blog.

One of the first books I bought was Michael Jackson: The Magic, The Madness, The Whole Story written by J. Randy Taraborrelli. From what I understand, he hung out with Michael from time to time and interviewed him on numerous occasions. At the back of the book, Randy lists a lot of other sources of information as well. He really did his research. He explains so much about Michael that by the time I finished reading the book I felt like I knew Michael personally. I also feel like Michael and I would have been great friends had I ever had the opportunity to meet him.

Randy wrote about the day that Michael and Anthony Pellicano met with Jordan and Evan Chandler for the child molestation accusation showdown. (Mr. Pellicano is a private investigator who was brought into the case by Michael’s long-time attorney, Bertram Fields.) Randy shared that after Michael and Jordan greeted one another with hugs “Evan then walked over to Michael and embraced him. ‘Nice to see you, Michael,’ Evan said. (What the…?) Michael stared at Evan with cold, dark eyes. Under the circumstances, it was an odd greeting by Evan. Later, Anthony Pellicano would say, ‘If I believed somebody molested my kid and I got that close to him, I’d be on death row right now.'”

Randy discussed the humiliating body search Michael had to endure to prove or disprove Jordan Chandler’s description of Michael’s genitalia, about which he claimed Michael was circumcised. That body search proved Michael to be uncircumcised. You can read about it on pages 534-537. (Michael’s autopsy report also reveals uncircumcision, page 18 – http://www.autopsyfiles.org/reports/Celebs/jackson,%20michael_report.pdf.)

I can’t even begin to imagine how Michael must have felt undergoing a body strip and search for false accusations! It must have been terrible for him!

On pages 537-540 of Randy’s book, he talks about LaToya’s live press conference in Tel Aviv, Israel in 1993 while on tour, stating that Michael was a pedophile. As you read further into the chapter, you discover that she was forced to say that from her then abusive husband, Jack, so they could make a half-million dollars on selling their story to tabloid magazines. In the last paragraph of that chapter Randy wrote, “Years later, LaToya would insist that the allegations she’d made against Michael were all Jack’s fabrications, which she was made to repeat against her will. Though it would take a few years, by 2003 she and Michael had cleared the air between them and were, again, close. LaToya also apologized to the rest of her family members; they then all accepted her back into the fold.”

Another book I bought is called Redemption: The Truth Behind the Michael Jackson Child Molestation Allegations by Geraldine Hughes. She was the legal secretary for Attorney Barry Rothman who represented Evan Chandler, the father of the first boy who accused Michael of molesting his son, and witnessed firsthand how the two men worked together to frame Michael of child molestation.

Geraldine discusses how that before Jordan and Michael ever met, Jordan had come up with the movie idea of Robin Hood: Men In Tights – yes Jordan. Evan thought it was a great idea for a movie and co-wrote it with Mel Brooks and David Shapiro. With the success of that movie, Evan decided writing screenplays was what he wanted to do with his life. He had been a dentist, but had been unhappy with that career choice. Sometime after the movie came out was when Jordan and Michael met. The two had become extremely close and Evan had become jealous of their friendship since he and Jordan had never been particularly close; however, that didn’t keep Evan from asking Michael to build an addition onto his home and when that didn’t pan out due to zoning issues, he had the audacity to ask Michael to buy him a bigger home. Michael said no.

In the meantime, Evan had come up with another idea for a movie, but with the second movie he wanted more of a controlling interest and that would require a substantial amount of money, Evan figured 20 million dollars. Because Evan was jealous of Jordan and Michael’s friendship and because Michael hadn’t given in to requests made by Evan before, Evan came up with the idea of accusing Michael of child molestation unless Michael gave him 20 million dollars. Geraldine wrote, “Dr. Chandler had specifically stated his motive at this time was jealousy because he perceived that Michael Jackson was stealing his son’s affection away from him. Dr. Chandler was angry, had a motive and saw an opportunity to make money.”

Evan then hired the meanest attorney he could find to go after Michael, Barry Rothman. If money was all Evan was after (and obviously it was since he did not go to a police station to press charges and have Michael arrested), an offer was made of $350,000.00.  Geraldine wrote, “Mr. Pellicano responded to Mr. Rothman’s request via fax stating that their client, Michael Jackson, had done nothing wrong and therefore they would not consider paying the twenty million dollars requested. He did, however, express a willingness to assist the father’s business venture by giving him a $350,000.00 screenwriting deal. He specifically said the offer was being made to resolve the custody dispute (two paragraphs below) and to allow Dr. Chandler a chance to spend time with his son. (This was to overturn Dr. Chandler’s accusation that Michael Jackson was destroying his relationship with his son by spending too much time with him and causing Dr. Chandler to lose his son’s affection.) This was the only claim that Michael Jackson was willing to take responsibility for because in his heart and soul, this was the only thing he may have been guilty of.”

However, Evan wouldn’t accept the counteroffer, saying that would not be enough. It was then that the world learned of the so-called sexual molestation allegations. Geraldine wrote, “Dr. Chandler refused the counteroffer because it wasn’t enough for him to shut down his dental practice and work full time on writing screenplays. It is my understanding that Dr. Chandler asked Michael Jackson for a film project of five million dollars per year for four years, which totaled 20 million dollars, or he would go public with the child molestation allegations.”

In regards to the custody dispute Geraldine wrote, “In order for Dr. Chandler to carry out his plan, he needed custody of his 13-year old son. It would have been difficult to carry out such a plan without full custody or with interference from the child’s mother.”

Geraldine wrote, “Michael Jackson settled the civil case for an undisclosed amount of money. The court ordered the terms of the settlement to be confidential and banned the attorneys, parties, and court personnel from mentioning the contents of said settlement proceedings. It was speculated, however, that the approximate amount of the settlement was twenty million dollars. It was estimated that Dr. Chandler received approximately one to two million dollars and the balance of the money was put in a trust fund for the little boy until he reached the age of 18. The parents were ordered to relinquish the custody over the little boy’s estate, and a retired judge was appointed guardian over his estate.

The reason I earmarked the word “civil” in the paragraph above is because it wasn’t a criminal case since Dr. Chandler never pressed charges against Michael and there was no evidence found of child molestation for Michael to be indicted. It was all about extortion, all about $$$.

Geraldine wrote, “I cannot help but speculate that had Michael Jackson gone to trial and not settled this case with Dr. Chandler, he could have won. Mainly because, in my opinion, there was more evidence collected by Michael Jackson’s attorneys and investigators to prove the extortion charges than the police had to show that any type of molestation ever took place.”

For people who ask, “If Michael was innocent, why did he settle?” Geraldine wrote, “It wasn’t until I was shopping for a literary agent for my book that I discovered that many people believed Michael Jackson was guilty of the child molestation charges simply because he did, in fact, settle. I heard people say repeatedly, ‘If he was innocent, why did he settle?’ I did not realize that was how a great majority of people felt. I assumed that people believed in the constitution of this country, which states you are innocent until proven guilty. In the legal profession, settling a case is the most preferred way to resolve a dispute, mainly because of the escalating court costs involved in litigating a case.”

Geraldine further wrote, “Cases sometimes make it all the way to the threshold of trial, and then settle right on the eve of trial. The settlement of a case, however, has never been recognized in the legal field as an admission of anyone’s guilt. It is cost-effective for all parties involved to settle a case rather than go to trial. Even the Courts require parties to participate in mandatory settlement conferences before going to trial.”

But Michael was innocent and later in her book Geraldine stated, “Two Grand Juries, which consisted of 24 peers in two counties, an extensive search of Michael Jackson’s Neverland Ranch, Century City condo, his parent’s Encino home, and even Michael Jackson’s body search, interviews with over 200 men, women, boys and girls, and even traveling out of the country to interview witnesses, did not produce any evidence to support a criminal indictment for child molestation.”

I now wish to bring out some wonderful valid points Geraldine makes about Michael’s character. Back when the Chandler allegation first took place, I remember most everyone questioning Michael’s sexuality… as if it were any of our business. She pointed out that a lot of Christians make a vow of abstinence. They refrain from having sex until they are married. Geraldine wrote, “They vow to remain unmarried and commit their life to do the work of God.” She does not claim that Michael made that vow, but he certainly devoted “his life to doing the work of God by helping underprivileged children around the world.”

Geraldine wrote, “Michael Jackson has always acknowledged and referenced God in his life. He has lived a modeled lifestyle of Godliness. His humanitarian acts and deeds tap into the very heart of God – to help someone in need, to feed the poor, to do for the least and to walk in humility. These characteristics are the very characteristics of Godliness.”

Geraldine stated, “With all of Michael Jackson’s notoriety, awards, millions of dollars, record breaking statistics and fans all over the world, he remains surprisingly humble, meek, unselfish, always caring for world unity, dying children, underprivileged children and reaching out to a hurting world. He never publicly broadcasted his humanitarian acts and deeds because of meekness and humility.”

On pages 171-175, Geraldine listed the charity work Michael was involved in through the years.

Geraldine also wrote, “Michael Jackson’s humanitarian efforts started long before the child molestation allegations surfaced, and continued even through the most difficult time of his life. He did not allow his suffering and pain to interfere with his continued efforts to help hurting children all around the world.”

“Be humble, believe in yourself, and have the love of the world in your heart.” ~ Michael Jackson

Another great book that I read is Was Michael Jackson Framed? Initially it was an article written for GQ Magazine in 1994 by Mary A. Fischer and due to so many people asking her where they can get the article, Ms. Fischer decided to publish it as a book and did so in 2003.

In the book, Mary discussed sodium Amytal being used by Dr. Evan Chandler to extract one of Jordan’s teeth. She wrote, “In the presence of Chandler and Mark Torbiner, a dental anesthesiologist, the boy was administered the controversial drug sodium Amytal-which some mistakenly believe is a truth serum. And it was after this session that the boy first made his charges against Jackson.” “The dentist claimed he did so only to pull his son’s tooth and that while under the drug’s influence, the boy came out with allegations.”

Mary quoted Dr. Phillip Resnick, a noted Cleveland psychiatrist, as saying, “It’s a psychiatric medication that cannot be relied on to produce facts. People are very suggestible under it. People will say things under sodium Amytal that are blatantly untrue. It is quite possible to implant an idea through the mere asking of a question. The idea can become their memory, and studies have shown that even when you tell them the truth, they will swear on a stack of Bibles that it happened.”

Mary quoted Dr. John Yagiela, the coordinator of the Anesthesia and Pain Control Department at UCLA’s School of Dentistry, as saying, “It’s unusual for it to be used [for pulling a tooth]. It makes no sense when better, safer alternatives are available. It would not be my choice.” Mary quoted Dr. Kenneth Gottlieb, a San Francisco psychiatrist, as saying, “I would never want to use a drug that tampers with a person’s unconscious unless there was no other drug available. And I would not use it without resuscitating equipment, in case of allergic reaction, and only with an M.D. anesthesiologist present.” Mary pointed out that Dr. Chandler did not follow those guidelines: “He had the procedure performed on his son in his office, and he relied on the dental anesthesiologist Mark Torbiner for expertise. (It was Torbiner who’d introduced Chandler and Rothman in 1991, when Rothman needed dental work.)”

Even though Dr. Chandler claimed he only used sodium Amytal to pull his son’s tooth, it is obvious that he used it so he could feed suggestions to Jordan about sexual misconduct on Michael’s part. Jordan wouldn’t admit to any wrongdoing from Michael and Dr. Chandler had to get him to admit it somehow so he could move forward with his extortion attempt! Greed. It’s a terrible thing!

The following recorded telephone conversation took place between Dr. Chandler and David Schwartz (June Chandler’s second husband) around the time the Chandler allegations came out, but only few newscasts brought it to our attention then it was cast aside and forgotten about. (It was Mr. Schwartz who recorded the conversation).

“Excerpts From the Recorded Telephone Conversation Between Dr. Chandler and Mr. Dave Schwartz”

Chandler: “I had a good communication with Michael. We were friends. I liked him and I respected him and everything else for what he is. There was no reason why he had to stop calling me. I sat in the room one day and talked to Michael and told him exactly what I want out of this whole relationship. I’ve been rehearsed about what to say and what not to say.”

Schwartz: “What has Jackson done that made you so upset?”

Chandler: “He broke up the family. The boy has been seduced by this guy’s power and money.”

Chandler: “I am prepared to move against Michael Jackson. It’s already set. There are other people involved that are waiting for my phone call that are in certain positions. I’ve paid them to do it. Everything’s going according to a certain plan that isn’t just mine. Once I make that phone call, this guy [his attorney, Barry K. Rothman, presumably] is going to destroy everybody in sight in any devious, nasty, cruel way that he can do it. And I’ve given him full authority to do that.”

Chandler: “And if I go through with this, I win big-time. There’s no way I lose. I’ve checked that inside out. I will get everything I want, and they will be destroyed forever. June will lose [custody of the son]…and Michael’s career will be over.”

Schwartz: “Does that help [the boy]?”

Chandler: “That’s irrelevant to me. It’s going to be bigger than all of us put together. The whole thing is going to crash down on everybody and destroy everybody in sight. It will be a massacre if I don’t get what I want.”

Chandler: “This attorney I found, I picked the nastiest son of a b**** I could find. All he wants to do is get this out in the public as fast as he can, as big as he can, and humiliate as many people as he can. He’s nasty, he’s mean, he’s very smart, and he’s hungry for the publicity.”

Extortion to the max! It’s so obvious!

This link reveals Evan Chandler suffered from bipolar disorder and with that information, everything starts to make sense. The blog shares that “Jordan claimed his dad attacked him with a dumbbell and got a restraining order against him in fall 2006. They never spoke to each other again.” Fall of 2006 would be a little over a year after Michael’s trial ended in June 2005. http://vindicatemj.wordpress.com/2010/05/07/evan-chandler-was-a-psychiatric-case/

Another book I purchased was Michael Jackson Conspiracy by Aphrodite Jones. She is a reporter who sat through each and every day of Michael’s trial, watched how it all went down, and realized afterwards that he was completely innocent of all 14 charges brought against him. She was in shock as prior to the trial she was convinced he was a pedophile. It took her some time, but she decided to write a book about what happened in the courtroom. She used her own daily notes to write the book, plus made copies of the court transcript in case she had missed anything. There is a caption on the front of Aphrodite’s book from Mr. Thomas Mesereau, Michael’s attorney, which reads, “To anyone who wants to learn what happened in the Michael Jackson courtroom, this is the book to read.”

Aphrodite reveals that during the 2005 trial the most harmful thing that hurt the Arvizo family’s case against Michael was that back on August 27, 1998 Janet (Gavin’s mother) claimed that she was physically and sexually assaulted in a JC Penney parking lot by security guards. Upon further questioning by Mr. Mesereau of Ms. Arvizo about comments she made on her deposition against JC Penney, she began to get flustered and admitted there were some inaccuracies on what she had written on said deposition. Aphrodite wrote, “The more Janet admitted to inaccuracies, the more she stated that parts of her JC Penney deposition were untrue, the less people were listening to her.”

It was also discovered that Gavin and Star (Gavin’s brother) had given sworn depositions that they witnessed their mother being assaulted. (Star claimed he witnessed Michael touch his brother inappropriately.) Aphrodite wrote, “As Mesereau sorted through Janet’s JC Penney deposition, he was able to suggest that Janet had coached her kids about how to testify.” After Janet and her husband, David, had been arrested, fingerprinted and made bail after the JC Penney fiasco, the West Covina police booking information from the incident “described Janet Ventura Arvizo as having no physical oddities, as needing no special medical attention.”

Aphrodite wrote, “But some time after, Janet Arvizo showed up at an attorney’s office making claims of having been physically and sexually assaulted by JC Penney guards.” She offered photos of herself with bruises. However, it was discovered that David Arvizo was an abusive man and that Janet “had been granted multiple restraining orders against her former husband.” As questions were continually being asked, it became clear that “the Arvizos and their kids were in the habit of using lawyers.”

Aphrodite: “At an early age, Gavin had learned how to sue people for ‘damages’.”

(The photo below depicts Michael with Gavin, Star and Davellin Arvizo in the kitchen at Neverland Ranch. They all look pretty happy and content to me!)

I must add that this book not only clears Michael on the 2003 allegations, but also the 1993 allegations and the Martin Bashir mishap, revealing what was actually said and recorded in the unedited version of Living with Michael Jackson. (Michael was smart enough to have his own cameraman filming as well; Michael’s version is titled Take Two: The Footage You Were Never Meant To See). In Martin’s edited footage, one of the topics that is discussed is the “baby dangling” incident with Michael insisting, “I was holding that baby strong and tight, and I know better.” He tells Martin that he’s seen parents fling their kids up in the air and catch them. “I got caught up in the moment. I was holding on tight. And it happened for like, two seconds. But, when it gets on the news they slow it down. They make me look like this eccentric idiot dangling this baby over a balcony, like a nut. They don’t show you the whole story.”

Sarcastically, Martin asks Michael if he is actually happy that he dangled his baby over the balcony. Michael said, “I’m not happy that I dangled the baby over the balcony, no. But I’m happy that I let the kids give a wave to him. I didn’t realize that he was over the balcony. You can make mistakes.”

Aphrodite wrote, regarding the unedited footage that everyone watched in the courtroom, “It was clear that the Berlin balcony scene happened because Michael had wanted to please his fans. There were thousands of people outside in a frenzy, hovering below his balcony, begging for Michael to show them his new infant son. When Michael went outside to the balcony, he quickly lifted up his infant so that fans could catch a glimpse.”

Aphrodite continued by saying, “For Jackson fans in the courtroom, it was disturbing to sit and watch Jackson’s innocent gesture in Berlin, as compared to the American media footage, which ran so many times over. The media showed the Jackson clip in a way that made him look crazy, always with nasty comments and rumors flying about Jackson having his children taken away from him. The media couldn’t get enough of Jackson’s ‘baby dangling,’ and they harped on his irresponsibility as a parent.”

Aphrodite: “No wonder Jackson hated the media.”

Please do not continue to be played like a puppet on a string by the media and believe Michael would intentionally harm a child. Come on. There is more proof in this book that the media was out to get Michael, hence the title. I am challenging you to read Michael Jackson Conspiracy.

It is my wish that everyone purchase Michael’s Dangerous DVD. On it you can watch a clip of Michael receiving a Grammy award in 1993 and also watch him talk about why he loved to be around children so much. He talks about the reason for inner city crime, large-scale wars, terrorism and overcrowded prisons is because children have had their childhood stolen from them. He reveals his compassion for sick children. His eyes even tear up as he’s talking about it. It is real heartfelt emotion. Now keep in mind that 1993 was also the year the first accusations were made of child molestation. What we all thought was such a touching moment from Michael at the Grammys, months later became speculation as to what the real reason was he loved to be around children so much and all over a malicious lie.

Please click on the YouTube link below if at this point you still think Michael was a pedophile. This is so adorable! He discovers a bug on the stage and is concerned about stepping on it. He even calls Security to remove it from the stage. He also insists that the security guy doesn’t kill it. When you watch it, you will see Michael’s true essence of sweetness and realize there is no way he was capable of child molestation when he is so concerned about the welfare of a bug: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HJtluuZCMK0

Some people believe or assume that the abused abuse; not necessarily so. Somebody along the way can stop it and here is Michael’s take on the subject: “I always said if I ever have kids I will never behave like this way (talking about his dad). I won’t touch a hair on their heads. Because people always say the abused abuse and it is not true. It is not true. I am totally the opposite. The worst I do is I make them stand in the corner for a little bit and that’s it and that’s my time out for them.” (Quoted from the book, The Michael Jackson Tapes)

“It all begins with forgiveness, because to heal the world, we first have to heal ourselves. And to heal the kids, we first have to heal the child within, each and every one of us.” ~ Michael Jackson (Quote is taken from Michael’s speech at Oxford University in England on March 21, 2001. It was a speech promoting his Heal The Kids Foundation: http://www.allmichaeljackson.com/speeches/oxforduni01.html)

Now I want to talk about Michael’s skin disorders, which were diagnosed in 1986. I really wanted to know why he was wearing makeup and I tried to find out first through all the countless magazine articles that came out about him right after his death, but I could not find one that mentioned anything about it so I searched the Internet trying to find websites that explained why and I was unsuccessful at first. I finally found one. The website doesn’t mention makeup, but after looking at the pictures on it I am convinced he had to wear it. Below is one of the pictures from the website below revealing Michael’s vitiligo. This picture was taken during the filming of his short film, They Don’t Care About Us. http://floacist.wordpress.com/2007/06/10/vitiligo-photos-michael-jackson/

The pictures below reveal the infamous spider bite that a lot of people thought Michael was lying about. The second picture also shows his vitiligo really well:

Also Karen Faye, Michael’s makeup artist, once explained Michael’s use of makeup and that it was to hide the patches of vitiligo. Michael mentioned he had the disorder in an interview with Oprah Winfrey in 1993, the first time he ever made it public, and he even told Oprah that’s why he wore makeup. Oprah talked about how translucent his skin was during that interview when she did a special on him on September 16, 2009, almost three months after Michael passed away, so with his skin being translucent together with the patches of vitiligo, he had to wear makeup. According to Randy Taraborrelli, Michael wore what is called pancake makeup and that made him extremely white. Michael had vitiligo on his lips as well so that’s why he wore lipstick.

I can’t imagine him feeling comfortable having to wear makeup, at least initially. I know Karen said that Michael didn’t see anything wrong with a man wearing makeup and I’m thinking if he did say that, it’s likely because he had no choice but to wear it, he grew accustomed to doing so and defended it by making that statement. That would make sense to me. Anyway, he somehow pulled it off and always looked amazing with it!

Karen, along with several other people in a YouTube video I watched once, said that Michael started wearing the one single glove in the Billie Jean performances because of vitiligo.

Karen worked as Michael’s makeup artist for many years. I watched a YouTube video where she said she met him way back in 1982. In doing the math, that is 27 years of service. In the same video, she says she was asked to put makeup on Michael for his funeral. She did. Talk about sweet devotion.

I am aware that a lot of people think Michael was trying to become a white man. He wasn’t. He was very proud of his heritage! I’m going to challenge you to do something. Picture yourself in Michael’s shoes as someone who traveled the world many times meeting huge crowds of people, performing in concerts on stages with extremely bright lights and with cameramen filming you, paparazzi constantly following you around taking pictures of you and catching every skin flaw you have. Now imagine that skin flaw is vitiligo, your skin changing color dramatically and there’s nothing you can do about it. Do you think it’s possible you would use a bleaching cream to rush the process of vitiligo along and wear makeup to conceal the changes that your skin is undergoing? Personally, I do not blame Michael one bit and if I were in his shoes, I certainly would have done the same. According to this link, he did use bleaching creams to even out his skin tone: http://ezinearticles.com/?Vitiligo-Skin-Bleaching-Creams—Michael-Jacksons-Vitiligo-Skin-Bleaching-Treatments-Reviewed&id=2613184

Vitiligo is also the reason Michael often wore long sleeve shirts, hats and sunglasses, and walked around with an umbrella. Vitiligo can cause skin to blister easily under direct sunlight and those blisters can become skin cancer.

Randy Taraborrelli wrote, “According to The Handbook of Nonprescription Drugs, as the sun’s ability to darken skin is much greater than that of Hydroquinone to lighten it, strict avoidance of sunlight is imperative. Although sunscreens may help, even visible light will cause some darkening. The preferable packaging of Hydroquinone is in small squeeze tubes. The dosage is a thin application of 2 percent concentration rubbed into affected areas twice daily. Once the desired benefit is achieved, Hydroquinone can be applied as often as needed to maintain depigmentation. Some have noted that Michael’s fingernails seemed brown and discolored on Martin Bashir’s 2003 documentary about him. One possible reason for this is that Hydroquinone stimulates pigment-producing cells in the nail plate, making them darker rather than lighter.”

Michael also had lupus. Whenever we saw him wear masks and saw him in a wheelchair occasionally, his lupus was active during those times. I have a friend whose sister had lupus and she told me her sister would become extremely weak whenever her lupus acted up – that sometimes she would be bedridden or hospitalized because of it. The reason for the masks is because when lupus is active the patient’s immune system shuts down and they are susceptible to germs and getting sick very easily. As we all know, sometimes Michael was around crowds of people at a time so he had to be very careful.

Randy Taraborrelli wrote, “There are two variations of lupus: discoid, which is skin deep, and systemic, which can be deadly. As a part of the treatment for discoid, Michael’s doctor prescribed the skin lightening creams, Solaquin, Retin A and Benoquin. As a result, Michael was told that, more than ever, he had to avoid all sun exposure – which is one of the reasons he is often seen shielding himself with an umbrella on sunny days. Also, Michael had to endure the direct injections into his scalp of Hydroxychloroquin – a steroid – in painful recurring treatments.”

In the picture above, Michael is not wearing blush. It was around this time in his life that his dermatologist, Dr. Arnold Klein, diagnosed him with lupus. Can you see why Michael had to wear blush? It almost looks like he’s wearing it anyway.

According to Michael’s autopsy report, he had tattooed eyeliner and lipstick, page 17: http://www.autopsyfiles.org/reports/Celebs/jackson,%20michael_report.pdf.

It was during the BAD era that I first noticed Michael’s tattooed eyeliner. Due to the lupus he was losing hair, including his eyelashes, which was the reason he wore the eyeliner and false eyelashes. Michael never talked about his lupus, but since a lot of people didn’t believe him when he said he had vitiligo why would he mention it? Besides, that was his decision to make.

A lot of people do not realize Michael was almost completely bald and he wore wigs. His autopsy report says his hair was sparse and a wig was connected to his head, page 6. http://www.autopsyfiles.org/reports/Celebs/jackson,%20michael_report.pdf

This link mentions the fact that Michael’s hair loss was due to lupus:  http://www.belgraviacentre.com/blog/new-lupus-treatment-may-help-with-hair-loss-208/

I’m sure you all remember the infamous Pepsi commercial in 1984 where Michael’s scalp received second and third-degree burns. Of course he lost some hair then, but the lupus took care of most of the rest of it.

I now wish to talk about Michael’s plastic surgeries. According to Randy Taraborrelli, Michael’s dad called him Big Nose as he was growing up and what’s worse, his dad would sometimes tell him he was ugly at the same time he was disciplining him. That may have become a psychological issue with Michael, making him think he was getting disciplined for being ugly. He even said he was constantly trying to make his dad love him – by perfecting his performances and perfecting his looks. I always thought Michael looked great, but that’s apparently not how he perceived himself. I read once where someone said he had plastic surgeries because he was vain. I don’t believe he was vain at all or he wouldn’t have been trying to “improve” his looks.

Due to Michael having a lot of plastic surgeries, it was rumored that his nose was falling off. Utterly ridiculous!! Michael’s autopsy report does not mention a detachable nose!!

In a DVD titled Michael Jackson: The Trial and Triumph of the King of Pop, there is a plastic surgeon discussing Michael’s many plastic surgeries. He said in Michael’s defense that his plastic surgeons would present the surgeries to him as touch-ups, that they were not surgeries, when in fact they were.

I want to touch on Michael’s pajama day in court. He was not trying to be disrespectful. He had hurt his back that morning and had gone to a hospital to get it seen about and was running late getting to court. When Mr. Mesereau told the judge what was going on with Michael, the judge told Mr. Mesereau he wanted Michael in that courtroom in 45 minutes or he was going to put him in jail or yank bail so Mr. Mesereau told Michael to get to the courtroom right away, even though Michael wanted to go home and change. Mr. Mesereau takes full responsibility for that.

A lot of people think Michael’s addiction to painkillers started after the Pepsi incident; however, according to Karen Faye, Michael Bush and Dennis Tompkins (Michael and Dennis were MJ’s clothing designers), they say it started nine years later when Michael had just undergone one of the many surgeries on his scalp in order to help heal the scarring from the burn. He had not had time to heal from that surgery and was about to perform in front of 80,000 people in Bangkok for his Dangerous tour so that was when he started taking the painkillers. It was also just before that performance that Michael heard he was being accused of child molestation here in the States so then there was not only physical pain, but emotional pain as well.

With all of Michael’s emotional problems beginning since childhood and then throughout life with the accusations, his medical problems, the burn to his scalp, multiple plastic surgeries, which included his scalp, and scalp injections, I can completely understand the addiction to painkillers. I hope I’ve helped my readers understand as well.

The picture below was drawn by Michael himself and the words are lyrics to the chorus of his song, Have You Seen My Childhood?

Even though he went through all of the above-mentioned trials in his life, it’s amazing how he still gave us his all, making each and every performance bigger and better, for his fans, and went on to be known as the King of Pop.

Now I wish to share some wonderful things Michael Jackson did:

Michael gave money to 39 different charities (mainly children’s charities) through the years from the proceeds of each and every concert he performed, including the HIStory tour where he gave ALL his proceeds to charities, and Michael is mentioned in the Guinness Book of World Records for the performer who gave the most money to charities in history. Even in death 20 percent of his proceeds, throughout time as we know it and beyond, will go to children’s charities. http://www.allmichaeljackson.com/charities.html

Michael gave all of his settlement money he got from the burn to his scalp from the Pepsi commercial to the burn ward at Brotman Medical Center where he was taken and they named the burn ward after him – The Michael Jackson Burn Center.

Even though Michael was suffering from burns to his scalp in the hospital, he would visit the other burn patients.

Michael took time before each and every concert, anywhere he went, to visit children’s hospitals and/or orphanages, visited with each child and took them gifts. To quote Michael from his autobiography, Moonwalk, “I spend a lot of free time – in California and when I’m traveling – visiting children’s hospitals. It makes me so happy to be able to brighten those kids’ day by just showing up and talking with them, listening to what they have to say and making them feel better. It’s so sad for children to have to get sick. More than anyone else, kids don’t deserve that. They often can’t even understand what’s wrong with them. It makes my heart twist. When I’m with them, I just want to hug them and make it all better for them. Sometimes sick children will visit me at home or in my hotel rooms on the road. A parent will get in touch with me and ask if their child can visit with me for a few minutes. Sometimes when I’m with them I feel like I understand better what my mother must have gone through with her polio. Life is too precious and too short not to reach out and touch the people we can.”

Michael told some children at one orphanage that if the conditions were not better there within 24 hours he would not get on stage the next night and within 24 hours the conditions were better with additional staff, new beds, fresh sheets on the beds, etc.

Michael gave concert tickets to underprivileged children by the stage.

In the 1990s, Michael created the Heal The World Foundation to help children everywhere across the world with whatever needs they may have and also created the foundation in an attempt to heal the planet from the mess we’ve created.

Michael and Lisa Marie came across a little boy at a children’s hospital in Hungary named Bela Farkas with a diseased liver and that little boy would have died if a new liver was not found for him so Michael got his foundation to locate Bela a new liver. Michael also paid for Bela’s surgery and continued paying for Bela’s treatment for 10 years after his surgery. Bela is still alive to this day, despite his doctor’s belief that he would not live past the age of 18.

Michael became friends with a young man named Ryan White who was diagnosed with AIDS following a blood transfusion in December 1984, Michael purchased Ryan a red Ford Mustang, and when Ryan died Michael appeared at his funeral. Michael wrote and dedicated his song, Gone Too Soon, to Ryan.

Michael not only participated in the huge event of We Are The World, but also insisted on helping write the song with Lionel Richie, a song that raised over 63 million dollars for starving people in Ethiopia, ultimately fulfilling a long time promise he made to his mother when he was very young, with tears streaming down his face, that one day he was going to do something about the starvation plaguing Africa when he watched a commercial with his mom featuring that devastation. Ethiopia is a country in East Africa: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=32z8NhAwMN4

To this day, the proceeds from any We Are The World purchases – T-shirts, CDs, DVDs, etc. – go towards hunger in Africa.

(On March 28, 1986, more than 6,000 radio stations of all format types played We Are the World simultaneously at 10:15 a.m. Eastern Standard Time. I remember that so vividly and thought it was the coolest thing ever!)

From out of the We Are The World event, the Hands Across America event took place “in which approximately seven million people held hands in a human chain for 15 minutes along a path across the continental United States, participants paying $10.00 to reserve their place in line.” (Quote is taken from Wikipedia.) From out of the Hands Across America event came Michael’s song and short film, Cry, in which he is pleading for everyone’s help in feeding the homeless in America because he realizes he can’t do it all by himself. It was a cry for help.

Michael helped children in war-torn countries deal with living in those areas through his Heal The World Foundation.

“We share his concern for the children who have been innocent victims of war and, who have suffered because of the horrors of war, many of whom are without families, food or homes. We applaud Michael for his sensitivity and efforts.” ~ BoyzIIMen (Quote is taken from the MJFC website.)

(The picture below is from a film clip during the making of Michael’s short film, Heal The World.)

After 9/11, Michael helped organize the United We Stand: What More Can I Give benefit concert at RFK Stadium in Washington, D.C., the concert taking place on October 21, 2001 with Michael performing What More Can I Give’ as the finale.

Michael received the prestigious Bambi award in Berlin for his work with homeless children because Michael “gives them so much hope and courage, encouraging them to go forward in life.” When he received this award, he was referred to as an “ambassador of humanity.”

… and the list goes on and on and on. Here is just one of the many websites that share the rest of Michael’s humanitarian work: http://www.michaeljacksonslegacy.org/index.php/his-humanitarian-work

“I will never stop helping and loving people the way Jesus said to.” ~ Michael Jackson

‎”I hate to see suffering, I hate to see people in need and I feel God gave me a gift, and I have to use it responsibly by giving back and I’ll do it until I have pennies left or the good Lord calls me home.” ~ Michael Jackson

Do any of the above humanitarian acts describe a pedophile? I think NOT! Humanitarianism is a show of “kindness and sympathy extended universally and impartially to all human beings.” Now THAT describes Michael Jackson to me!

What have any of us done for children on a global scale? Michael took on huge responsibilities by doing all he did, but he did them. He saw the needs and he worked hard to meet them. How is it that such sweet acts by such a kind and loving man be twisted into something so horrible? Why? Because the mainstream media never talks about Michael’s humanitarianism and instead fills our minds with constant stories of supposed child molestation! The proof of extortion on Dr. Chandler’s part that only few newscasts revealed then dropped is a great example of leaving out something positive about that case that would have supported Michael’s innocence and instead we heard the lies… over and over again like a broken record!

Martin Bashir is a prime example when he said, in the unedited version of Living With Michael Jackson, “Your relationship with your children is spectacular. It almost makes me weep when I see you with them because your interaction with them is so natural, so loving, so caring,” yet when the edited version was watched all over the world Martin said, “Neverland is a dangerous place for children.” Michael and Martin were together in Berlin when the so-called “baby dangling” incident occurred, but neither Martin nor newscasts bothered to share why Michael was in Berlin in the first place and that was to receive the Bambi award that I mentioned previously!

Newsstations compete for the highest ratings they can get, it’s a scramble to be at the top and, most unfortunately, it’s always at the expense of someone’s reputation! The media knows lying makes for a more interesting story and people are going to stay glued to their TV sets when drama arises. It makes me wonder who’s really at fault – the media or us. Let’s face it. Either way Michael never stood a fighting chance where the media is concerned. But, as you can see in the photo below, they are not always correct in their broadcasting:

“In the Michael Jackson case, most media conclusions were shallow, misinformed, and self-serving. I know in my heart of hearts that Michael Jackson was not guilty of these grisly charges.” ~ Mr. Thomas Mesereau (Quote taken from the MJFC website) YouTube has plenty of video clips of Mr. Mesereau talking in Michael’s defense! Please research them and discover them yourself!

This is a great time to mention the FBI files that revealed NOTHING against Michael through 17 years of investigations! He came shining through “like a comet blazing ‘cross the evening sky.” (Quoted from Michael’s song, Gone Too Soon.) https://vault.fbi.gov/Michael%20Jackson

Regarding women and relationships, even though Michael would have liked to be in a relationship all along (next paragraph), I don’t believe that was his main priority in life. I believe God placed in his heart a much stronger desire to help children and to heal the planet, and that Michael used his God-given ability to grab an audience by song and dance in order to move us through powerful messages in songs like Cry, Black or White, Heal The World, Man In The Mirror and Earth Song. I believe God put him here to be our modern day angel. How else did Michael grow to have such strong love and compassion for children, especially for children who are suffering?

This is a quote from Michael from his book, Moonwalk, published in 1988, long before the first allegations in 1993“I believe in love – very much so – how can you not believe after you’ve experienced it? I believe in relationships. One day I know I’ll find the right woman and get married myself. I often look forward to having children; in fact, it would be nice to have a big family, since I come from such a large one myself. In my fantasy about having a large family, I imagine myself with 13 children.”

Here are two quotes from Michael from his autobiography where he gives God credit for his singing and dancing abilities:

“My mother knew her polio was not a curse but a test that God gave her to triumph over, and she instilled in me a love of Him that I will always have. She taught me that my talent for singing and dancing was as much God’s work as a beautiful sunset or a storm that left snow for children to play in.”

“I’ve always joked that I didn’t ask to sing and dance, but it’s true. When I open my mouth, music comes out. I’m honored that I have this ability. I thank God for it every day. I try to cultivate what He gave me. I feel I’m compelled to do what I do.”

“When Michael Jackson sings it is with the voice of angels, and when his feet move, you can see God dancing.” ~ Bob Geldof (Quote is taken from the MJFC website.)

“When God was giving out talent, He gave all of it to Michael Jackson.” ~ Babyface (Quote is taken from the MJFC website.)

“He’s incredible. He’s a genius. Just to be in the same room [with him], I felt everything I wanted to accomplish in life has been achieved… That aura… that’s incredible that aura is…” ~ Akon (Quote is taken from the MJFC website)

My beautiful 18-year-old daughter said something to me recently that really touched my heart and I want to share it. She told me that God would not have given the kinds of gifts He gave to Michael, the strong compassion to help children like he did and to perform songs with such powerful messages as in Cry, Heal The World and Man In The Mirror, if Michael were a pedophile. Now isn’t that beautiful? And what a strong point to make! God bless you sweetie!

Here’s a statistic for you: 90% of sexual molestation accusations are false. (I got this information off of the DVD, Michael Jackson: The Trial and Triumph of the King of Pop.)

I have another thought for everyone to consider. Michael Jackson hung out with credible people, including Elizabeth Taylor who was dearest to his heart and, like Michael, was a humanitarian. Chris Tucker, George Lopez and Macaulay Culkin took the stand and defended Michael during the 2005 molestation trial. Bruce Swedien, Michael’s sound engineer, said he does not know the Michael Jackson the media describes. Barry Gibb of The BeeGees named one of his sons after Michael and made Michael godfather to that son. Miko Brando (Marlon Brando’s son) made Michael godfather of his children. I hardly believe Barry and Miko would have done all that had they believed Michael was a pedophile. Also, Michael was close friends with Princess Diana who we all know was an advocate for children… just like Michael!

“Everything about Michael is truthful. And there is something in him that is so dear and childlike – not childish, but childlike – that we both have and identify with.” ~ Elizabeth Taylor (Quote is taken from the MJFC website.)

Michael having a childlike mind, heart and spirit is why he had so much love and compassion for children. He could relate to them and their needs. To see evidence of his childlike spirit, go to YouTube and bring up Michael Jackson Private Home Movies and you’ll see what I’m talking about.

“I love to do things for children and I try to imitate Jesus. I’m not saying I am Jesus. I’m trying to imitate Jesus in the fact that he said to be like children, to love children, to be as pure as children are and to make yourself as innocent.”  ~ Michael Jackson on the Oprah Winfrey Show in 1993.

On the same show Oprah asked Michael, “What do you want the world to know about you most?” He said, “To be a great artist. I love what I do and I would love people to love what I do and to be loved. I just simply want to be loved wherever I go, all over the world, because I love people of all races, from my heart, with true affection.”

“Michael is a generous, honest, and sensitive human being, filled with amazing insight and the capacity for love. If this is weird, I want to go live on another planet.” ~ Karen Faye (Quote is taken from the MJFC website.)

Here is a letter from Azja Pryor, an ex-girlfriend of Chris Tucker’s and mother to his son, that she wrote to Gavin Arvizo and his family begging them to come clean and tell the truth about Michael’s innocence: https://selfie1982.wordpress.com/2009/07/11/open-letter-to-arvizos-from-azja-pryor

Keep this in mind: Not everything is black and white and there are always two sides to every story. Unfortunately, we never gave Michael much of a chance to tell his.

After reading all of this, to those of you who are still bent on believing Michael molested children, “If any one of you is without sin, let him be the first to throw a stone” at him. John 8:7 [New International Version]

Also, to those of you who are on the Internet attacking Michael in one way, shape or form, please reconsider as his children could be affected. I don’t care how old they get. No one wants to hear repeated lies about their father.

“Ever since I was born, Daddy has been the best father you could ever imagine. And I just wanted to say that I love him. So much.” ~ Paris Katherine Michael Jackson, July 7, 2009 (Michael’s Memorial)

Now come on everyone. It is time to open your minds and your hearts where Michael is concerned. He was not a pedophile. He was not Wacko Jacko. He was not such a weird man after all.

Brenda McDonald

I dedicate this blog to Michael Joseph Jackson who loved the world and everyone in it, who gave of himself body and soul, not only in his music and dance, but also in love, kindness and compassion like no other entertainer before him, and continues to give even in death. ‘I wish I would have known you in this lifetime, Michael…’til we meet in Heaven!’










Hello world!

January 23, 2010

I hope you enjoy reading my thoughts on Michael Jackson. He was a wonderful man with a big heart and very misunderstood. I hope you take your time reading this and will judge him justly. We all deserve that. Please read with an open heart and an open mind.